Hopeful beginnings just end in a fury Oh, how could I count all the darlings I've buried? Plans I drew so well Abandoned, left for ruin Unfit for thriving, I fight even blind There's a cave with my name on it, jump in you'll find me Digging the wrong way Lost the light of day Year after year I do someone else's calling To die an old man earning minimum wage No stones left for sale With what soul should I trade, then This fictional world taking a piss on my dreams Guess I got used to complicit suppression of who I was meant to be So what's left to lose, can I unlearn self abuse I'm gonna do all the things no one cares about just because I want to Like these typical chords under irrelevant prose Sounds like a watered down version of something I've already heard before And I might hit the notes, but it's a god-awful tone How could I fool myself into believing I have what it takes, I don't Tell me how could you be so sure if you've never been there before Cause we're on again, and we're off again, drifting farther from the shore Always skeptical, too submissive, counting failure this whole time I was nobody then like I'm nobody now to be fair, let's be fair You were not there Of all you could have done, blowing smoke was better You were not there To save me from myself, over and over and over and over and Let this rite of passage bring about a better man It's never good enough but I'm doing all I can I run toward the fear, these chains are gonna break Cause a lover and a loser cannot sit in the same space

Photographs and letters make a funeral pyre Burn it all to ashes with my purest fire My hero stands exposed to show what I admire A coward who's a slave, a junkie and a liar Will I feel the light of silent patience grow Whispering a truth about what I control Or fake away my days following a ghost To be a monster in a maze, to be a heart without a hope Over, soon it will be over I don't know how much more I can give Over, soon it will be over That's the only solace that there is Even with a candle I could navigate Imagine all the lies and lies a torch illuminates I'll set myself on fire if it's all the same If I'm getting out, I'm going out in flames Over, soon it will be over I don't know how much more I can give Over, soon it will be over That's the only solace that there is Over, soon it will be over I don't know how much more I can give Over, soon it will be over That's the only solace that there is

In the night when all is quiet, alone and dreaming I feel you with me just to die, and wake up screaming For a god to deprive someone their sight for seeing A punishment no just because I haven't done a god damn'd thing How will I see through the night without my only candle burning How will I climb out of this well without my angel to lift me out I was born, just to beg for your saving grace I think about him in every stride like he's running with me I find myself laughing so hard my sides start burning For a god to deprive someone their legs for walking How does it help anyone is it your sick idea of mercy How will I see through the night without my only candle burning How will I climb out of this well without my angel to lift me out I was born, just to beg for your saving grace

I need your advice Someone on my shoulder like you I know what I want But you know what I want more than I do My demons are tuning out They don’t believe the suns’ around My body’s aching all the time I drink myself to the ground Yeah, I got strings to hold me down My body’s working overtime It feels so good hanging on to you Take and wear my favorite noose Don’t recognize the world I’m in Every day I’m sick of feeling He’s missing out on good times Barely ever scrapes by, but Still alive, yeah you’re, still alive Laying low in your bed Busy and bored to death, but Still alive, yea you're, still alive somehow I promise I'll be good, Cross my heart and hope to die a fool Trying to get help They say “it's never gonna help unless I really want it to.” My demons are pissed off now I need something to calm me down Another dose and I'll be fine They say these prescription pills Can resurrect my broken will Just twice a day, I’ll be alright I feel so sick hanging on to you Give anything to cut you loose Already know the state I’m in Every day I’m sick of feeling He’s missing out on good times Barely ever scrapes by, but Still alive, yeah you’re, still alive Laying low in your bed Busy and bored to death, but Still alive, yea you're, still alive Taking shit from your “friends” It's funny 'til it isn't You’re still alive, yea you're, still alive for now A thousand folds He’s missing out on good times Barely ever scrapes by, but Still alive, yeah you’re, still alive Laying low in your bed Busy and bored to death, but Still alive, yea you're, still alive Losing all of your “friends” It's funny 'til it isn't You’re still alive, fucking, still alive for now

All your days gone wrong Then she came along All your limbs went numb Hand in hand you jumped Drowned you underwater A doorway to another plane If you only knew all that she does for you You'd fall down to your knees and cry If you only knew the way that she moves for you You'd never close your eyes

No one gets offended, even though you're so offensive You are celebrated for your profanity No one ever stopped you to rip out your tongue, or Tried to scare you back wherever you are from So what pass? I'm entitled it's my right and I’ll do as I intend What past Would sew my lips, cut off my hands over words you don’t understand Whoa I never had to learn to fit in Whoa I never had to learn a new language Whoa Wasn't made fun of it for when I did Whoa, I never had to fight for anything No one ever stopped you asking why you run, or Tried to put you down with a loaded gun No one ever bothered to watch you body hang, or Was a criminal from behind a flag So what pass? I'm entitled it's my right and I’ll do as I intend What past Would sew my lips, cut off my hands over words you don’t understand Whoa I never had to learn to fit in Whoa I never had to learn a new language Whoa Wasn't made fun of it for when I did Whoa, Never had to fight for anything It's nothing new, it's nothing new We know exactly what they do This establishment has a book of tricks How to steal our flag, and our country too Who locked the door to liberty? Ethnocentrically held beliefs “Black is criminal, brown is terrorist" "Can’t let them have the 'Land of the Free” Do you see what your country bought The streets still covered in black blood But I swear to god, yea, I swear to god Our kids won’t be scared of the cops Whoa I never had to learn to fit in Whoa I never had to learn a new language Whoa Wasn't made fun of it for when I did Whoa Never had to fight for anything No one gets offended even though I'm so offensive I'll be remembered for my humanity

We're lying awake alone on the grass Watching from below as Leonids pass November clouds versus Crazy Hearts I'm gonna catch you a shooting star We live today like our final one Glow like a land of a thousand suns In every direction our light will disperse Traveling through the Universe How many lifetimes have we been How many battles did we win Lightyears away we will find a truth You're my tiger I am your wolf I am your wolf, I am your wolf When our bodies start to rust All that's left is a cloud of dust I will be with you wherever you are I'm gonna catch you a shooting star We live today like our final one Glow like a land of a thousand suns In every direction our light will disperse Traveling through the Universe How many lifetimes have we been How many battles did we win Lightyears away we will find a truth You're my tiger I am your wolf I am your wolf, I am your wolf